“Self-reflection is more than just the means and the end of
self-examination and self-rectification; it is the path which leads to the
consecration of self-realization.”
With my schedule a little more limited this week, I have
decided to cut back to every-other day until I can work out the proper balance
of time each day for all I have to accomplish. Hopefully I will be back to
daily meditations once I can get my schedule under control.
I’ve been working on this project for around a month now,
and the daily reflection has helped me to better understand my true nature. It’s
funny, I was thinking about it before I even opened my laptop to find out today’s
reflection; I have to say that at this point, I’m not terribly impressed. As
much as I would like to say that I am doing so much for others since I began, I
have truly just become more selfish than ever before.
Don’t get me wrong, I am doing more each day that benefits
others, but I am not doing it solely for the benefit of those others. I am
really doing it for me; I do nice things so that people will acknowledge me and
tell me how wonderful I am. And when I don’t get my way…well, let’s just say I’m
not a very nice person when I don’t get my way. That’s not to say that I throw
a fit or beat the crap out of people; I’m more subtle than that.
This project was supposed to help me find balance, and I
suppose it’s working grandly, as I am far more accepting of who I am compared
to how accepting I was a month ago when this all began.
I can’t say whether or not I will truly become a better
person when this is all said and done, but I do know that I will know exactly
who I am and what I am capable of.
Blessed Be
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